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When I first started blogging in 2013, I had no idea that it would reignite a long lost love for writing, or help me grow so much as an individual. I just wanted to write about life in hopes that someone else out there would find comfort in my words, or be able to relate on some level. By writing and sharing my life with others, I began growing as a person and figuring out who I am.

Ultimately, I began feeling as if I’d grown out of the niche I created for myself here. While the scope of this blog is pretty broad, all of that exploration helped me to narrow down my interests and what I love writing about. The more I grew and changed, the more I started feeling that need to grow as a writer, too. I’m still a twenty-something, yet I feel worlds away from the girl I was when I first started this blog.

It took some time and soul-searching, and I lost a full time job along the way, but in January of this year I finally decided to pursue an idea that had been brewing in my head. With unexpected time off and the means to take a little time to figure out my next move, I started a new blog, Travel Taste Click, focusing on local travel, food, and photography in Central Florida and beyond. Travel, food, and photography are great passions of mine and it feels effortless to write about those topics and share my ideas with the world. It’s something I gladly do for free and simply for the enjoyment it brings to me. I’d love for you to transition with me and check out/follow Travel Taste Click, where I contribute on a weekly basis.

I’ve learned a lot through my twenties (which have felt like a whirlwind of constant course correction and change), but I’ve also learned that it’s not the end of the world when one path fizzles out and takes me in a different direction. It’s okay to change your mind. It’s okay to go another way. And it’s okay to do things in your OWN way, even if it differs from the popular way. While I held onto this blog for a long time, I realize now that I’ve offered up what I needed to and am ready for the next move.

This blog, and all of the articles within, will remain at least for the short term. I still receive messages every once in awhile and am SO grateful for everyone who I’ve met through this space. I hope the words here continue to benefit anyone out there who stumbles upon them, and I hope you can enjoy what I’ve created over at Travel Taste Click as well.

You can find me online at Stephanie Patterson Photography (my wedding/engagement photography business), Travel Taste Click, Facebook, and Instagram. Or, you can always drop me a line at Please keep in touch and let me know where you’re at in your journey. I’d love to hear from you!

Is Busyness my Crutch?


Recently I came across an article on The Everygirl (Addicted to Busy: When Business is Really Avoidance) that spoke to me immediately, stuck with me throughout the next day, and wedged itself firmly in my brain space.

Take a moment and read it – I’m sure at least one of the points mentioned will resonate with you.

I read it again the next day and couldn’t miss it this time; the article calling me on my bullshit for using “busy” as an excuse to avoid the harder stuff.

I am busy from the moment I wake up to the moment I go to sleep, but at the end of the day, I often feel unfulfilled and like I haven’t gotten anything done. I have technically done many things – I’ve gotten up and dressed and fed myself throughout the day, commuted to work, exercised (okay – working on this one…), spent time with my SO, caught up with friends and family, spent 8-10 hours working on marketing projects for clients, running the house and on and on.

All of the above keep me busy enough, but some days there are large chunks of time that seem to disappear. I’m working, but I’m not always producing something meaningful, and that upsets me and often fuels my anxiety.

My initial thoughts after reading the article were that yes, being productive is really important. But why waste time being busy when we could spend a smaller chunk of time creating something true to our values, that fills us up and makes us feel that rush of excitement at having produced something we love?

Because being productive in a way that’s passionate, creative and true to oneself can be really scary. That’s why.

When I go to work in the morning, I am generally not afraid of what will happen. I have an idea of the outstanding projects I need to work on, I have a certain rapport with all of my clients along with an understanding of each of them and their expectations, and I know with confidence I can meet anything that comes my way.

At first glance, that sounds wonderful. But on a deeper level, I don’t always feel productive at the end of these days because I haven’t truly challenged myself creatively.

I spend a large chunk of my day doing things that keep me busy, but they’re also easy.

This doesn’t become a problem until I turn inward and realize that some days, that shallow busyness is all I’ve done. I haven’t truly been present in other aspects of my life and day (like in connection with my SO, my passion for the arts: photography and writing, or in taking care of myself physically and emotionally).

Why? Because I am so burned out from my perpetual busyness that nothing is left for the things that actually matter to me (boyfriend, friends/family, my dog, being creative, personal health, travel).

My personal creative projects are also exciting and scary, and putting them off while pursuing easy, predictable tasks is easier than rising up to the challenge.

Being just around the corner from the start of a new year, I feel as though coming to terms with these things and realizing them about myself is the first step towards the change I know I am ready to make in my heart. I also realize I need to challenge myself, starting now, to be more conscious in everything that I do.

Separating the natural need to be “busy” due to social norms/internal pressure from the fulfillment of truly being busy with projects and pursuits that light us up is the first step towards creating positive change in both our own lives and society.

Let’s boycott “busy.”

Take it from a twenty-something: You have to get it wrong in order to get it right

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If I could sum up my experience as a twenty-something thus far simply and honestly: 80% getting it wrong, 20% getting it right, with a healthy side dose of anxiety, excitement and confusion.

Getting it “wrong” has been a huge part of my life process as I try to figure out who I am, what I like, what I don’t like one bit and what I want to do (and not do) with my life.

My wrongs have been plentiful thus far. Case in point: Career. After an intensive 3 years in art school where I studied photography, I exited college and took the first job I found. Not in art or remotely close, although maybe folding clothes could be artistic if we’re really stretching it. I took that retail job as a means to eventually jump ship to an entry-level position in corporate (retail) America and landed there a few months later.

That job could not have been more wrong for me. Sure, I was good at it and made friends and got free clothes and also had one important thing needed for success in your 20s: a PAYCHECK. Yet I was never happy at that job and always complaining about it. It was boring and stressful at the same time. Yet it was comfortable territory and I was getting paid, so I stayed.

Another example: Relationships. Another big part of your 20s, which I think is important for anyone, is to truly explore your options. Date a lot of people–often a lot of wrong people—and find what you need and want in a relationship as well as what you don’t.

I thought I was dating someone when I wasn’t (more than once), was treated poorly and treated others poorly, almost moved in with someone I shouldn’t have (and didn’t), reconnected with exes who eventually reminded me why they were exes, and made poor judgment calls that hurt people more than once. But, I also had some good relationships in which I learned trust, communication, reasonable differences, common core values and respect are the pillars of a great relationship and the type of relationship I wanted to find.

And because I could keep listing examples all day long, it’s also worth mentioning MONEY. Ugh. I started working in retail at 16 and don’t think I saved a penny of ANY paycheck I saw until I was 23, and that may even be putting it nicely. I didn’t pay attention to money at all and thus it flowed freely into and right back out of my life. I had a lot of credit card debt, didn’t understand my 401k benefits at work (never asked, then later cashed it out when I left to move to FL), lived paycheck to paycheck with no cushion, used student loan checks unwisely, bought a bunch of crap I didn’t need, I think you get the picture.

I realize a lot of the choices or things I have done may seem “wrong” on the surface. I’ve definitely let guilt overwhelm me and felt the pressure of being wrong. But as the common saying goes, hindsight really is 20/20 and I see now that the path to the right stuff is often paved with the wrong.

Yes, my first job out of college was kind of a bust. It wasn’t related to my college major but it did pay my bills. It enabled me to actually pay my own rent without having to ask my parents for help. I also learned a LOT from that first job. It taught me about handling stress. I learned how to juggle tons of tasks at once while still meeting everyone’s deadlines. I got a taste of what it’s like to manage others, and also learned that the work environment of corporate America probably wasn’t the best fit for me.

And relationships? I dated a lot of wrong people and eventually was able to figure out what matters most to me in a partner. All qualities my current boyfriend possesses. I’m thankful for those times I spent exploring my options and figuring out what mattered to me, and I’m also thankful for the time I spent being single and loving myself. I may have felt lonely at the time, or heartbroken, but all of those experiences prepped me for a stellar relationship I’m thankful for every day.

Money has been the most recent undertaking for me, and while the more I learn about it the less I seem to understand, I have made waves in improving my finances. In an odd way, I’m thankful for experiencing that paycheck-paycheck life and the stress of debt, because now I know what it feels like both to have debt and be free from it. I know the secure feeling that comes from having a little extra saved up for the inevitable “rainy day” or, more accurately, the trifecta of horrible unexpected expenses that all seem to happen at once. Not understanding certain money concepts led to a desire to understand them and make smarter choices.

Every job, relationship, experience, choice and outcome has something to offer. At the very least, you can learn from what you’ve done wrong and appreciate it for teaching you what exactly the wrong thing is.

You will not have the perfect job the second you graduate, you will probably not find Mr. (or Mrs.) right on your first try and you’ll stumble and fall a lot, especially in the first few years as a twenty-something. But it’s not a mark of failure or poor judgement on your part. It’s just a reminder that getting it right takes work.

You may be wrong today, but somewhere in the future, you’re getting it right.

My Closet, the Giver of Life Lessons

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Getting rid of just about everything in my closet was a byproduct of my quarter life crisis. Apparently, when you’re questioning who you are, your closet also takes the opportunity to reassess itself.

I didn’t have the answers and unfortunately, neither did my closet.

The only problem with getting rid of basically all of your clothes is the whole filling it back up with stuff you love part. And when you’re deep in the process of aggressively paying off debt (think “gazelle intensity”) shopping kind of falls by the wayside. So I found myself with a depressingly empty closet, and no budget to immediately add new things.

Alas, there are lessons to be learned in every experience, and while my closet wasn’t able to tell me which direction to take with my life, it definitely had a thing or two to teach me in the process.

First, it’s okay to live with holes (both of the wardrobe hole and physical hole variety).
There have been times in my life where I’ve felt something was missing. Whether it was lack of passion in my work, or feeling lonely during the times John and I were dating long distance, or losing a friend and feeling that void big time. But the most important thing to remember is that those feelings and voids are temporary. There are always new jobs to explore, solutions to relationship roadblocks, and new friends you haven’t met yet. Living with a hole can give you clarity on what actually needs filling back up in your closet and in your life, and makes your future decisions all the wiser.

You can follow the trends and wear yourself out trying to keep up, or you can just do what the hell you like.
As much as I love fashion and it’s ever-changing nature, what I love more is the process of defining what feels like me and is true to me alone. That’s what makes getting dressed fun. And this is exactly why FOMO (fear of missing out) and comparing yourself/your life to those people you are friends with on Facebook from high school but never talk to (guilty) are both activities that don’t deserve your mental energy. Same goes for comparing your closet to that of a fashion blogger with an endless supply of “c/o” items coming in each month.

If you look at someone else’s life and try to follow in their footsteps or emulate their style, you’ll be entering the endless game of catching up. But if you just learn to be happy with what you have now, you’ll feel more full than ever. Do and wear what makes you happy and forget the rest. Like Amy Poehler says: “Good for her! Not for me.” Take that simple, fantastic advice to heart and appreciate others while still loving what you’re working with.

Sometimes, you just have to let go.
The most painful part of my closet purge was getting rid of some of my shoes. Whether they were winter boots no longer practical for my Florida lifestyle, or pumps attached to fond memories of my life at 21, letting go of the past and of things that no longer fit your life is hard. Know what’s harder? Letting go of people. Letting go of regret. Letting go of guilt. But when you do let go, it’s amazing how much better you feel. Letting go is hard, but it’s absolutely necessary if you want to move forward.

At some point, everything will feel wrong and look wrong and make you feel so blah.

Just like your wardrobe crisis, you’ll also have your fair share of life crises. When I felt like I didn’t know who I was or where I wanted to go I looked to my closet and saw much of the same. I saw things that no longer felt like me, and everything I added was a reflection of my blah upon blah mood. But this is part of life, and it’s also part of figuring out your style. Sometimes you have to feel and experience all of the wrong stuff in order to get to the right stuff.

You can always start over, and it’s not impossible.
A lot of the times, you already have most of the things that you need to reinvent the wheel both in your closet, and in your life. Getting rid of basically ALL of my clothes made me realize there were some true gems to be unearthed. Those gems became the building blocks of my wardrobe rebuild, but I found I was happy with only those items and didn’t feel a great urgency in adding new items. If you’re feeling unsettled in life, take a moment to weed out all of the negative stuff and think about all of the great things you have going for you already. Roof over your head? Sunshine? A loving and respectful partner? Cookies? I bet you feel better already.

Figuring it out requires confidence and a willingness to experiment.
Remember when you were completely fearless with fashion? For me, that time was mostly in high school where I went through different personas rapidly until I settled somewhere in the middle that felt the most “me.” But some of that confidence and experimentation seems to dwindle as we age, and we find ourselves playing it safe more and more.

The last big life change I made was at 23 when I moved from PA to FL to move in with John. It was scary and exciting but so worth it! I was confident in my decision, and it paid off. Now, at 26, I feel another big life shift coming on and for a long time, I let fear get in my way. But fear sucks. Let go of the fear, make a change, and don’t be afraid to experiment along the way. You won’t get it right the first time, or maybe even the fifth time, but you’ll get there.

I still don’t have the answers, and despite how many times I’ve asked my closet it doesn’t seem to have them either, but that’s okay. Whether you’re cleaning up your closet or cleaning up your life, remember that the pain is part of the process. And there are lessons to be learned in even the worst of situations, as long as you’re willing to pay attention.

What to do When Your Quarter Life Crisis is in Full Swing

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Ugh – the inevitable quarter life crisis. I got through the beginning of my 25th year with no inkling of a crisis and assumed (wrongly) that I was in the clear. Before I knew it, my life became a blur of constantly questioning myself, crazy anxiety and a big loss of confidence in myself.

While I’m still coming out on the other side of my “crisis” and still have my fair share of anxiety ridden days, I also appreciate this time of my life for what it is: a lesson and motivator for me to continue growing and move onto the next chapter.

The bad news? You’re definitely going to go through your quarter life crisis. There’s no escaping it. You are a quarter of the way through your life, and that fact alone pretty much guarantees that you’ll end up reflecting on your life on SOME level in the near future.

The good news? You aren’t alone. Even if your friends don’t show it, they’re probably going through the exact same struggles you are. Everyone reevaluates their life at some point and here are just a few ways you can get through it:

We take breathing for granted because it’s automatic. We don’t have to consciously tell ourselves to breathe, and therefore don’t pay attention. But when you stop, count your breaths and really focus, you naturally slow down and give your brain something else to focus on besides the black cloud of doom you’ve created for yourself. Just stop and breathe when it all feels like too much.

Know what you like to do, and do it.
I truly believe that one of the biggest reasons my quarter life crisis arrived was due to the fact that I was ignoring my creative side. I convinced myself that photography and arts weren’t worth creating if I couldn’t or didn’t make money doing it, or that I was a failure because I’m not a full time photographer like I always expected I would be by this time in my life. It was an excuse to quit and take the easy route, but when you’re passionate about something and DON’T do it, you will feel unfulfilled. So, carve out some time each day, week, or month to do something that makes you feel really happy. Get more of that stuff in your life! It’s hard to feel sad and doubt yourself when you’re spending a lot of time doing things that make you happy.

Push yourself to try something new.
I’ve talked a lot about comfort zones and how it’s hard for me to get out of mine. I love control and having a good idea of the outcome of different situations, but my best memories are always the ones in which I felt pretty anxious/excited/scared beforehand and exhilarated after. Trying a new activity you aren’t used to is such a good confidence builder, and consistently trying new things may lead you on a path you never expected.

Talk to someone, or a lot of someones.
I think a lot of the time, we already know deep down what new direction we desire to take in life or which changes we’re ready to make. But we need validation, or someone else’s confidence in us in order to see it clearly. Having a face to face meeting with someone and just laying it all on the table is scary, but so worth it. If you can, reach out to someone you admire or a mentor. I reached out to a friend from my zumba class and it was such a big step forward. It helps if you talk to someone who doesn’t know you inside and out as they can look at your situation more objectively, but you should also talk to your mom, your relatives, your SO, your friends or whoever will listen.

Set a goal for yourself.
For me, that goal was paying the rest of my student loan off within a year. I made a plan and put a lot of focus on achieving that goal. The reward was greater than being debt free – I’ve also gained a lot of confidence in myself that can translate into other areas of my life where I need that confidence. Set a goal for yourself and throw your efforts into achieving it.

Remember where you are relative to the rest of your life.
People talk up this decade of your life in the same way everyone said “enjoy college while it lasts, those are the best years of your life!” So, when you’re halfway through the other supposed best years of your life, it can be easy to forget that you have a great lifetime ahead of you. Sure, you need to lay some groundwork for yourself in your 20s, but there is no rulebook stating that you must have your whole life perfectly mapped out and planned before your 30th birthday. Your life and hobbies and interests can change at anytime, so extensive planning can be counterproductive.

Remember that we are all winging this.
Why do we all put so much pressure on ourselves to figure everything out right here right now? It’s an impossible goal and you’ll never meet it. Neither will I. We are all in this together. We’re all confused, we all question our choices, and we all want to find meaning in the things that we do day in and day out. But there comes a certain point in which you’ve just got to let go and fly by the seat of your pants sometimes, just like everybody else.

And finally, let go of the need for perfection.
There is a lot of appeal in the idea that you can wait to start something until everything is just so. But the problem with this idea is that everything will never be “just so” because perfect isn’t attainable. Once you reach your “perfect” I can guarantee you’ll find something else in need of adjustment. Chasing perfection is nothing more than procrastination. Trust yourself and your plans now, and let your heart lead you too.

Like getting your wisdom teeth out, your quarter life crisis is practically a guarantee. But in the end, you’ll know you’re better for it, and eventually time will fade the pain, confusion and anxiety. Cheers to getting unstuck, and moving onto new things. You got this.